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Friday, October 20, 2006,8:14 PM
Emotional me
FINAL WARNING: It’s the last straw! I’m not going to endure any longer. Whoever the person is, the next one who calls me ‘auntie’ I’m going explode. Please note that never in my life, no matter how angry am I, I don’t explode. I really can’t take it anymore. It’s over my endurance limit already. I know you people maybe joking. Once or twice, I will forgive. But it’s already the second semester. I may stare or treat it as a joke. But it’s getting on my nerves and it’s hurting me. I still have my pride. I know it started out as a joke. No matter how serious it is, no matter how you guys say me, I really don’t mind. But it’s really getting me these days. No matter what I do, wear or whatever, you all have a say in it. From just calling me that, you guys keep saying I GO market and I bargain. Please for goodness sake, please know when to stop, don’t keep crossing the line. I maybe smiling at that and laughing, but deep down it’s not a nice feeling for being called that. Really, don’t let me explode, when that day comes, I may even stop talking to you all. I will just stop talking one day and treat you guys as invisible. It’s already not my usual self in school. The real me is not like that. Anyway, you guys don’t know the real me. Only those who really really really know me well will know. I’m actually not violent in sense, I’m just active. I still have my pride. I have my own eyes to see. I hate people talking behind me especially. Initially I really don’t mind being called that, as I know it’s a joke between us. But now, I really can’t take it anymore. You try being a called a nickname that you dread, and when you are being called that, people will laugh. How will you feel? I may be smiling all day long as if there’s nothing that can affect my mood. But who knows it’s my inner self or the real me? I badly affected in this environment. I feel more depressed as you guys called me that. I know I’m not as popular as others. But please respect me and my feelings. Sooner or later, I will withdraw myself into my own world. Deep down, I’m not the person you all are seeing.
The person you guys are seeing now is a girl who has smile on her face regardless of what. When she herself have problems who knows, she just keep it deep down in her heart. Crying in the dead night when no one is there when she’s really badly affected by the problems. She don’t like troubling people with her own problems. She try to smile and forget any horrible incident instantaneously. She puts up a strong front in front of people, but only the dead and silent night will see her weak side.
Even those who know me well don’t even know the me. She hides it well, casting all problems aside.Saturaday, 21 October 2006, 11.08pm
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